The journey...

Life is in the journey, not the destination, so do what you can and take it one day at a time. Go slow, do it right, and make your changes permanent — then help out others who are where you were.

~Jillian Michaels

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Sunday, May 3, 2009

...hard-core Thursday

So I'm a little behind on this weight loss competition update, so here we go.
Weight Loss Competition: Week 3
Lost: 1.4lbs Competition Total: 12.4lbs
WEIGHT WATCHERS TOTAL (started Feb): 35lbs
It was a rough week in the sense that once again I had gained nearly 5lbs from Competition WI (Thursday) to Weight Watchers WI (Saturday). Not to mention I started on Tuesday and "bloat" doesn't begin to describe what I felt. Every other Thursday I have off work so I am able to go hard-core and this happened to be that Thursday. As I previously posted, I told myself that I'm done with the water pills and starving myself (until the last WI of course.), and this was my first WI to follow through with that commitment. That morning I weighed in at 4lbs up than the previous week. OH SNAP! 4lbs in a day again, and Aunt Flo's in town AND NO WATER PILLS!!!

"You've GOT to be kidding me!!!"

Well, I made my way to water aerobics for an hour kick butt lower body session with none other than my "personal Jillian," SHAUNA!!! I then drove to my gym to follow up with 30mins of cardio and 10min in the hot sauna. After about an hour of facebook, I went for a walk with my Dad which proved to be motivating. "Go Hard or Go Home" BABY!!! We had no pre-plan of where to walk and this was the latter part of our walking dialogue:

Dad: "Should we turn now?"
Mesha: *gasp* "Naw, let's go one more block..."

That conversation lasted for approx. 1 more mile! SUHWEET! We put in 2.8miles total. After returning home I did 10min of step aerobics on the Wii Fit and had concluded that if I hadn't lost, I hadn't lost...I was fully prepared to pay the $4 for my gain as I felt like I'd laid all I had out on the table. I hit that competition scale and NOT ONLY did I drop those 4lbs that I was up that morning, but I also deducted an additional 1.4 lbs down as icing on the cake (wait, not cake, I can't have cake - ummm..."as peas with my carrots." HAHA)

OH BUT WAIT...the good news doesn't stop their friends, it keeps getting better. I cancelled my Weight Watchers monthly pass, (which makes me incredibly sad), but I wanted to go back today for two main reasons:

1. I knew I had hit my 10% milestone, which is a HUGE accomplishment for me (which also meant 2 more 5lb stars as well).

2. I wanted to formally say "Goodbye until July" to Roxanne, my weight watchers leader who rocks (no pun intended).

I didn't start out in Feb going to her meetings, but I had to do a make-up once on a Thursday I believe, and she was the leader. I THOUGHT SHE WAS GREAT. She's funny, sweet, young, GORGEOUS and seemed like someone I could sit and listen to without getting bored. That's when I switched my meeting days to Sunday mornings before church, which she also leads. I heard her talk about some inspiring "personal" motivations for her and the changes she got to experience as she lost - but in the back of my mind I always sorta thought - seriously, there is no way this woman understands the LEAST about a significant weight loss like I face ahead of me. I think she's great, but overly fabricating her stories. I mean, everyone sees themselves much bigger than they really are and its apparent she is one that had that same illusion. Well, I checked out her website 2 weeks before my subscription ended and read her story. ROXANNE LOST 95LBS IN 2000. For 9 YEARS now she's kept it off (exception to having children). GOOD NIGHT! I'm not gonna lie, I have a significantly longer journey than that, however, that stirred me up.

I seriously think God has been showing me over the last month to throw away my pre-conceived ideas because I've had numerous experiences where I'm left speechless because I "pre-judged" a situation or person. So much of life can be wasted by carrying that sort of mentality.
I'm not just losing weight, I'm gaining life...
I'm learning so much about myself and it's been so illustrative of my walk with Christ. I just want to grow in Him...I want to fall more in love with Him. I feel like as I'm learning to be more confident and obedient in my physical life it's bringing me to a WHOLE new place in my Christian life.
1 Corinthians 9:26-27 (NIV)
26Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. 27No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.


Shauna said...

every pound and every step on your journey is an inspiration to me and others! keep it up..i know this is going to be a good week.

Mesha's Dad said...

I am so very proud of you, for many different reasons, but also for your commitment to your health now. God wants all of his people to be healthy and well, and you are taking charge of your health, and God will continue to bless you for doing that.
Love you,
Your Dad