The journey...

Life is in the journey, not the destination, so do what you can and take it one day at a time. Go slow, do it right, and make your changes permanent — then help out others who are where you were.

~Jillian Michaels

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Thursday, August 16, 2012

...dusting things off!


I'm BACK (I hope!)

There are a few things that have fallen by the wayside the past two years:

  • Eating SMART
  • Staying ACTIVE
  • Taking care of me, FIRST!
  • BLOGGING!!!
Today I'm so excited and I FEEL a sense of refreshment and renewed vigor to do what once gave me such JOY, peace and love for ME!!!

Ya know, a few years back it felt like my entire life fell apart all at once! A relationship. Church. Faith. Family. Work. Living situation. Finances. Health. Friendships.

Nothing was left unshaken.

As if all at once, the pot of my life tipped over and everything went pouring out leaving me feeling empty, lost, alone and hurting. Deeply, deeply hurting!

At that same time, I happened to be at the BEST physical shape of my life. I had successfully lost 163 lbs and led a very active lifestyle. When my slap of reality hit and the earth around me seemed to shake, damaging nearly everything that meant anything to me, my attention and care for physical health and wellness was the first thing to go to the wayside. Quickly following was my self esteem, positive attitude towards healthy living and encouraging others and confidence that I could continue on with this...

...this state has continued on with a gradual, yet steady decline for 22 months now and TODAY I set it in my mind to stop it dead in its tracks, just shy of 2 years from the darkest point in my life to date!

Here it is, out in the open, I've managed (without much difficulty) to pack #96 pounds# back onto this body that I at one time "almost" felt comfortable living in and I can't do it anymore! I cannot avoid friends who have continued on with great success anymore. I cannot erase that portion of my life (one of the best), in attempts to act as though it never existed. I cannot deny that "me" that I grew to once love and respect any longer!

I WANT HER BACK!!!

To those of you who have met me AFTER these significant life events, I love you for loving this "me" that you've met who has had trouble even loving herself, but I'm excited and hopeful to introduce you to the "me" I was beginning to find just a short while ago. To those who have been FAITHFUL friends and stuck by me before, during and after - THANK YOU! And to those who have left, chances are life wasn't meant to continue on at this point with you in it, I thank you for the season God gave us!

It's time to get my life back in order, ALL of me!

Emotionally.

Mentally.

Physically.

Spiritually.

I invite you, whoever you are, yes YOU, the one reading this at your computer, on your laptop, smart phone or random tablet device, to strap on your seat belt and go with me on a journey.

I ASK YOU, to help me. I acknowledge, for me it's harder to walk this road alone. Yes, at the end of the day it's just me facing the mirror and I fully recognize that I have to be the one to do this, but I'm not to proud too admit that I need your help too!

Let's get together for workouts. Healthy meal preparations. Random Challenges. Fitness Events.

Feel free to go all Jillian Michael's on me and KICK MY BUTT (Jillian, I know you TOTALLY follow my blog and facebook, so a personal butt kickin' from you is most certainly invited.....What! One can dream)! :-p

Life truly wasn't meant to walk alone, and I'm thankful for those of you walking in stride WITH me!

So there you have it...I'm dusting things off and pulling out the running shoes, fitness bands and RE-utilizing this PUBLIC blog. No more crying in secret!

I'll end this by quoting MYSELF, (I know, right...I'm choosing to remind myself of what I once held so firmly to)

"Love and support has made a world's worth of difference in my weight loss, but  at the end of the day YOU are the only one who can make it happen."

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2 Corinthians 7:1

Therefore, since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God.

4 comments:

vmfambrough said...

YES MA'AM! I am so proud of you Mesha!!! I am so excited to read this. I've been waiting for you to find you again and if this blog is any indication, I would say that you have! Remember...it is always going to be a battle...so just put on your armor every day and go fight the best you can. You can do this and I am here for you right along side you fighting too. I love you so much!

Shiloh said...

She's Baaaack!!

LaughingLady said...

Atta girl! It sucks, knowing something as unavoidable as food is going to be a lifelong battle, but facing it head-on, and with the grace and power of our Lord Jesus Christ, all things are possible... even the seemingly IMpossible!

A&T said...

You are hilarious-quoting yourself! Let's workout when I get back.