The journey...

Life is in the journey, not the destination, so do what you can and take it one day at a time. Go slow, do it right, and make your changes permanent — then help out others who are where you were.

~Jillian Michaels

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Wednesday, November 11, 2009

"To eat or NOT to eat..."

I'M BACK...don't think I was giving up on you or anything!!!

I just happened to get SICK! (HaaChooo!!!)

So last time we "talked" I was confessing an emotional GAIN and brutally honest and transparent for two reasons:

1. Accountability

2. Support

It wasn't so much for YOU to keep me accountable, although I appreciate it when you do...however, it was for ME to be accountable to myself. Like I said, if I'm truly convinced that this HAS become a lifestyle change and giving up is NOT an option, why not openly "face the facts" and keep on moving. Why be ashamed or embarrassed about my start and current weight when I know it does not define me or discredit who I'm becoming. SOOOO...Thank You all for your comments and again supporting me on this LONG, hard, yet enjoyable journey that is more than worth it because I am worth it!!!


Some of you may be wondering, "So what does this all have to do with a 'No Food or Drink' and 'Just Say No' picture?" Wondering how I cheated and/or messed up AGAIN? Why I opened by paraphrasing my last blog?? Am I beating around bushes???


I filled in for a retirement center branch last week which is always a pleasure because the residents have so much to offer in conversation. Well, the head chef stopped by the bank office while I was working and "generously" dropped of a slice of KEY LIME PIE (while I was ON THE PHONE of all times)!!!

I nearly had a panic attack when I ended my call because I was now faced with a perfectly sliced piece of KEY LIME PIE on a ceramic saucer (this is an important detail) that I KNEW I had not budgeted for NOR should I be eating. I was now faced with the question: "To eat or NOT to eat?" I now faced whether I "politely" accept this kind gesture from "retirement chef" or do I stick to my day because after all, "If you fail to plan, you plan to fail..." and if you PLAN and don't stick to it...well, you still failed.

(It's okay to laugh at that was supposed to be funny...SMILE a little!!!)

So back to the story!!! The fact that this sweet treat sat on my desk on a CERAMIC SAUCER is a major detail folks! The retirement branch closes at 4pm at which time I lock the doors and am well on my way. This means...RETIREMENT CHEF will likely be back before 4pm to retrieve this dirty dish and inquire about my satisfaction. Lying wasn't an option...but for that days eating itinerary that piece of pie wasn't worth the $$price$$. So many decisions, so little time and it felt as though the WALLS themselves were staring at me waiting for this CHOICE. At that moment I drew what seemed to be a great conclusion: "When RETIREMENT CHEF returns, I'll simply tell him I'm dieting and I really shouldn't be eating that pie but 'Thanks' anyways."

PERFECT!!! ( a "picture-perfect" world...)

This is when my thought process is interrupted by none other than Mr. RETIREMENT CHEF!!! With a glistening piece of pie still awaiting my appetite I immediately pitch my line. Right when I felt the invisible "pat on the back," he replied with: "GOOD! It's sugar free," and was well on his way before I could react and with this ceramic saucer remaining on my desk.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!! Some may say, "Rock on, that's great!" Oh no, not a bad situation just got WORSE!!! Folks, just because something is SUGAR FREE does NOT constitute CALORIE FREE. Better option...sometimes...but this doesn't void the fact that this TREAT is calories you EAT.

I am PROUD to say that I resisted the temptation and eased away from the wall I felt backed against by discretely disposing of the pie to avoid an offense and simply *SMILING* as I handed him this empty ceramic saucer and proceeded to appear too "busy" to engage in conversation. (Okay, maybe a little deceptive...but it worked alright!!!)

MISSION COMPLETE: "It's all about choices..."

Verse of the Day: Titus 2:11-13

For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age, while we wait for the blessed hope—the glorious appearing of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ,


Anonymous said...

PERFECT verse. I struggle, as you know, with self control! I wondered how this played out, but I am GLAD I waited to ask because reading it on here with everyone else was pretty great!!! I love you, Mesh, PROUD of your decision!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

Ashley said...

good job Mesh. Just say no!

Valerie said...

Awesome! I have thrown away food people gave me and said afterwards that it was soooo good. (I am bad like that...) I just was raised not to hurt people's feelings when it comes to food. I guess that's what got me in the mess that I am currently fishing my way out of. Ya know? Especially in the South, people get offended and hurt if you don't finish what's on your plate. I am getting better about refusing things and telling people "No...I can't eat that." In fact, I was rude enough to bring a Subway sandwich to a nice family dinner my mother-in-law cooked...I am not sure that she was happy about it, but I am OVER eating what's in front of me just for the sake of being polite.

Good girl, Mesha!


Shauna said...

really key lime pie!!! my favorite!! glad you stayed strong...I would have probably been licking the plate before the will power would have kicked in. the picture alone had me licking my lips.

by...K@ Ashcroft said...

I just have to jump in here and say Good for you and sticking to a choice you had already made. HOWEVER, if it had been me I would have taken a taste (probably less than what would constitute a bite) so that I could give honest feedback and then thrown the rest away. That way I could still graciously and honestly thank them for their creation and the fact that they had you in mind when creating it. It's a win win if you ask me. I am still proud of you and your choice, while not my choice it is still a great one.